In the case of my own grief, bargaining became a huge but less public part of the process. I think that this is fairly normal in cases of suicide. There are so many what ifs for me. What if I had talked to his family more and made them see how powerful his depression was? What if I had talked to him more in the three days leading up to his death? These are painful fragments that really show how bargaining typically looks in situations of grief. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

For me, it was especially difficult not to feel at fault as there were several situations where people told me in their own grief that I ought to have done more. I know that the people who blamed me were doing their own grieving. When you are in bargaining mode, it still hurts to have those what ifs spouted at you from someone else’s lips. It was easy for me to absorb those comments and feel that they were right. <\/p>\n\n\n\n